A Turn for the Worse

Have you ever experienced something that put your mind into a bind? You may have had a difficult time feeling your feelings. That is where I am today. My mom took a turn for the worse. This weekend I am going to visit her at the rehab center where she is a patient. She may not recognize me, which I know is going to be very strange.

It is difficult for me to see my mom as weak. She has always been a strong person with a keen wit. A few weeks ago I talked to her on the phone and she told she was going to buy a new car. She did a few weeks before her problems started. I always expected her to live at least ten more years.

Loss triggers hidden memories of loss which have not been worked through. I have so many past events in my life that make it difficult for me to process my mom's illness.